I'm delighted that you would give a bit of your day to me & Carrie, even more so that you would give us the opportunity to spread a little love.
I’d like to tell you the story of how I accidentally became a drag queen.
Like so many things in life, it started out simple, but layered. You see, I had wanted to be Carrie Bradshaw for Halloween ever since college, when I had HBO in my frat room and girls would come over and watch Sex and the City on Sundays. I would pretend that I hated it because I didn't want to give myself away.
Well, I let the secret out last Halloween, and I never could have imagined all the love that came pouring in. I had a few more pictures left from a fun little Halloween photo shoot, so I kept posting, this time with Carrie-style musings. I watched old episodes the way that scholars read James Joyce, studying every line to pick up sentence structure, question style, pun format. I wanted to make sure that my “wondering” was as authentically Carrie as possible.
But then the tutu pics ran out. Would I keep going? I was a bit scared. I was scared people would stop caring and I would look stupid. I was scared people would keep caring and I would look crazy. I was scared what my boss would think. I was scared what my mom would think. I was scared that I would become undateable in an era when a certain breed of bearded masculinity was in vogue. I was scared. But if you spend too much time on other people's thoughts you start living other people's dreams. And in early November 2016, when this all started, it seemed I needed a bit of levity and the world needed a little more love. So instead of hanging up my heels, I bought more. Because life’s a drag without drag :) And it turns out every single one of those imagined fears was just a projection of my own insecurity. I’ve received nothing but love. And I want to keep going in the hopes that I can send back to you just 1/10th of that joy, confidence, self-esteem, and self-love.
At the start of this little project, I posed a question to myself. I wondered: Is it possible to create a little corner of the internet that is all positivity and all love? Only love.
So far, so good. And I could not be more grateful for every person who’s added some love to this tiny little happiness project.